All Over The Place!
|Photo Credit: Robert Davey [Aug 2003]|
It's been quite a month. After three long, hard years, I FINALLY completed the requirements for my bachelor's degree! I have been practically beside myself with joy. I have been looking forward to this moment and the freedom it offers for three years - did I mention they were three long, hard years?
I can't remember how many times I fantasized about what I would do with my new found "free time." I was going to read a ton, write a ton, blog a ton... you get the idea. So imagine my surprise when night after night of that first week I found myself staring at a blank screen, my mind full of words and ideas that I couldn't seem to get out. Finally, in frustration and disgust, I closed my word processing program, and spent the next several hours watching episodes of Heroes on Netflix...
Other evenings were a variation of the same. I would plan to read, and I really tried, but just could not concentrate. I finally grew tired of having to read each sentence three times and still not remembering what I read. Again I found myself seeking refuge from my friends on Heroes. Two Heroes related accomplishments [if they can be called that!]: 1) I made it to the beginning of the final season; 2) I was saddened all over again by the downward spiral the writing took after the first season. Yeah, that writer's strike was brutal... but I digress.
My point is that I have been so distracted, restless, scattered over the past two weeks, and it has been a source of great frustration. I have so many ideas but no clue about where to start with any of them. The easy flow I was expecting following graduation never came. Instead, please pardon the reference, I have been creatively constipated. That is, I was until I saw this photo above. It illustrates perfectly where I have been for the past two weeks - everywhere and nowhere all at once.
Here I am, faced with endless directions I could go in, and, in my excitement, I have wanted to take them all. The result has been not taking any, and I can't live that way. So today I am taking a step back, taking a deep breath, whispering a prayer, choosing ONE direction to move toward. I am clearing my mind of all the other places that I would like to go, knowing that I will reach every single one of them - in time.
Am I the only one? Has anyone else felt this way? God promises to keep us in perfect peace when our minds stay focused on Him. It is so easy to get overwhelmed, but thanks be to God for His peace and His direction that is available to us any time we start feeling like we are all over the place. Beloved, that is some hallelujah, good news today! Rejoice in it, rest in Him, and take it one step at a time.
A New Creation,
(2 Cor 5:17 NLT)