Good morning, beloved! I have missed this place so…
I am in such a strange place right now… It’s that place where I am having to refocus and adjust my plan. In truth, I am realigning myself with God’s plan. The whole process has been a bit frustrating for me, not because of the readjusting, but because I have not been able to articulate what is going on. Writing is not only my gift, it is my coping mechanism. It is my therapy, my comfort, my oxygen. Even when I cannot speak a thing, I have always been able to write about it. In the process of writing and then looking back at what I have written, I can get a clear picture of where I am, where I took a detour, and where I need to go. This time, however, I have been stripped of the familiar. I have to find another way to locate where I am and where I need to go… This is hard, but it is necessary.
A key point throughout my Christian walk, my life journey, has centered around coming to the place where I know and understand that my security, my safety, my direction, my EVERYTHING is in Christ alone. I realize I should never get to the place where I rely on anything more than I do on the Father. I can look back and see that whenever that has started to happen in my life, God has moved me from that thing temporarily in order to realign me. In the process He has always revealed Himself to me in a new way and my life was forever changed.
The last time was back in 1999 when He clearly told me to move to a place where I knew maybe four people and only one of them really well. No job, no car, no family & friends, and no idea what He was doing. I felt like I was on the high wire without a net, but I went in faith, armed with Genesis 12:1-3 and trusting in the plan of God. I watched doors open out of nowhere. A good job, a steady ride to and from work each day from a woman who didn’t know me from a can of paint, a place to live while I got on my feet – then my own place, and a car…. He provided and I couldn’t give the credit to anyone else. I learned so much about my God in that place. Through the good and bad times it was so worth taking that leap of faith. It changed my life for the better in so many ways and I grew like I never could have if I had stayed in my comfort zone. When the time came for me to return home after nearly eight years, I was a new person and the things I once relied on faded into the background – into their proper place.
So this time, my pen has been stilled. I do not even have the spoken words to express my thoughts. I am in a place where it is less about me talking to God and more about allowing Him to speak to me. I am in a posture of listening… and it is a good thing; different, but good. So for those of you who see me and I seem even quieter than normal, this is why. Know that I am ok. I am just being processed in a way that is new to me and figuring it out as I go along, but it is well with my soul.
Maybe you find yourself in a strange or different place with God today. Can I just encourage you to know that it is OK and you are OK? My prayer is that you do not run from the process, not even from the uncomfortable/scary parts. We have a guarantee that the fruit that this process brings in our lives far outweighs the momentary discomfort. [Romans 8:18 “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.” (NKJV)] Be encouraged and continue to stand beloved - we can do this!!
Have a blessed day!