This Joy that I Have
"This joy that I have the world didn't give it to me
Oh oh oh this joy that I have, the world didn't give it to me
This joy that I have, the world didn't give it to me
The world didn't give it and the world can't take it away!"
I'm not ashamed to admit it. Hi, my name is Isunji and I am a basically happy/joyful person. I can't help it. Not only is it how I'm wired, but since I added Jesus to that mix it is magnified even more! I realize I can potentially get on people's nerves if I am not careful. In fact one of my friends calls me Pollyanna, which I love because that happens to be one of my favorite movies. Any guesses as to why? :)
What can I say? All I know is that give the choice between being happy or miserable - I will choose happy every time. And we all get one, you know? A choice I mean. Now I would be lying to you and to myself if I said I always wake up feeling happy or that every situation in my life makes me happy - that's not reality, that's a Disney movie! What is real is that every day I am faced with a choice - will I be joyful today or miserable? Happy or sad? Loving or mean? Selfish or selfless? The potential for both lies within me, but which one I will act on is always up to me.
Is it always easy to choose the positive? Heck no, it's not easy, are you kidding me?! In a society where misery loves company it is so much easier (and more acceptable) to join in on the moaning and complaining, the self deprecation, and the negativity. In fact I have done it.
I walked in to work complaining that it was Monday, the weekend wasn't long enough, I don't have everything I need to do this job, my boss is this, my coworkers are that... and on and on it went (because that kind of thing tends to snowball you know.). I found that by the end of the day I was a cranky, tired mess! You can imagine what I joy I was to the ones waiting at home! (because that kind of thing also tends to spread to those around you) I also realized that nothing in my behavior glorified Christ, nothing in that behavior set me apart from anyone else. In other words, the real job that I was sent out to do, make a difference for Christ, didn't get done that day because of my choice. I can not speak for anyone else, but I am not a fan of conviction from the Holy Spirit, so let's just say I got better at choosing!
Every once in a while I get a confirmation that I am on the right track. Like the other day when a my editor said that she enjoyed reading my statuses on facebook and was amazed and how positive I always seem to be and how I look at things from that angle. It was the perfect opportunity to give credit where the credit was due. I immediately pointed her to the source of my joy - Jesus! It was a blessing and it is the reason I am here. I think Michael W. Smith says it best in one of my favorite songs from the 80s... Enjoy and make it a great day - remember the choice is yours!