Procrastination. Procrastina-a-tion is making me wait….
So as I work my way through my first three classes (the only semester I’ll need to take three classes thank God!), I’m rediscovering some things about myself - namely my tendency to procrastinate! Perfect example, I have a 4 page paper due TODAY that I’ve only just started. The idea had been rolling around in my head for a few days, but I didn’t take the time to sit and write it all down before now. (Then of course there is this break right here to write a blog post because all my adoring “fan” needs to hear from me right now! Thanks Mom!) I’m not so much worried that I won’t get it done, I always do. It’s just the cycle that this behavior always takes me through. For me, it’s a vicious cycle: I have a task, I make a plan to accomplish it and then I find a billion other things to do up until the last minute where I am scrambling to beat the clock, stressing over it, and beating myself up for waiting so long AGAIN! It is an exercise in frustration to say the least. And each time I vow - “Never again!!” Yeah right!
It reminds me of the merry-go-rounds on the playground. Remember them? As a kid I used to love that ride, but I was never good at getting off when I’d had enough. The few times I tried to jump off I ended up scraped and scratched, so eventually I would just ride it out until it slowed down enough for me to stop it with my foot, then I’d get off and go join everyone else for the next game which was usually already in progress!