A Farewell to Global

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. (Jer 29:11 NLT)

My stomach fell into my lap as I read the words of a text message from one of my best friends for the umpteeth time. "Next Sunday is the last Sunday. Global will be no more. Will call you after church." I was dumbfounded. Global Outreach Christian Center, the ministry, the church that was instrumental in changing my life, is closing down next week... What in the world?! I was waiting for the follow up text telling me that it was all a joke... it never came.

I walked in to Global for the first time as the guest of some new friends in October of 1999. It was different form any other church I'd ever been too. I didn't know any of the worship songs or any of the people, but by the time I left, I knew this was going to be home... Armed only with a clear word from God I packed up and moved. No job, No car, No place to live, but I stepped out on faith.

I was in a state of constant awe as I watched God supply every one of my needs. He provided a family friend who opened her home to me for 2 months while I got on my feet. He provided a job with a prominent insurance company in the area. He put in on the heart of a stranger who lived close to where I was staying to offer to drive me to and from work every day. The list goes on and I can't even begin to tell how much I learned, experienced and grew while I was there.

I'll probably be forever discovering all the reasons that God moved me for that season, but I am clear on one thing. He took me from the comfort, safety and security to a place where I could learn that He is my comfort, my safety, and my security. It was rough at times, but I made it and my faith reached a new level because of it. Global played a huge part in my growth and now, this time next week, there won't be anymore Global.

So many questions and emotions twirl around inside my brain and I'm left with confusion and a lack of understanding with a flash of anger thrown in every so often. At the moment I am numb because right now it's easier and safer to be numb...

At this time I have no other option other than to rest on the fact that God knows what He is doing even if/when no one else does. (Jeremiah 29:11). I trust in His plan for all those who will be displaced by this sudden change. I rest in the knowledge that none of this takes God by surprise and He's already made provision to take care of those involved.

Still my heart breaks for those who are hurting right now. My heart hurts for those who felt like this was the only alternative. My heart aches for all the could have been in and through Global. I mourn for the death of the dream even as I rejoice in the birth of a new dream. Global, I will miss you so much, but I'm thankful for the good things that I will always carry in my heart because of you.