Not So Easy!

LaShawn called it the Staples easy button. She derived hours of laughter from the phrase, "That was easy!" And I have to admit, it was amusing... the first time... Still it's a perfect description for the ginormous red eruption to the right of my chin that's invaded the usually smooth plain of my skin for nearly two months now... I mean this thing has set up camp and shows no signs of going anywhere anytime soon. Just when it looks like it's going down or about to disappear, it flares up again - angry, bright red (which is kinda funny on black skin, but not so funny at the moment) and sometimes painful (the pain would be my fault for trying to be my own physician...)

If you're wondering where I've been, I've been a little preoccupied with this thing. Before now, I would never have considered myself vain. In fact I was the least vain person I knew. Lately, however, I find myself peering into any and every available mirror staring at this entity on my face. It has driven me almost to the point of distraction. I think about it all the time and I'm more self conscious than I can ever remember being before. Now I'm thinking now that my lack of vanity was only because my experience with breakouts has been very limited. I remember complaining in high school once because a bump had shown up on my face. I was overwhelmed with the hostility from my "crew" who proceeded to explain that they didn't want to hear from someone who's face was always "smooth as a baby's butt!" So, I shut up...

I'm telling you, this thing has taken on a life of it's own. I'm convinced people are carrying on conversations with it instead of with me and I hate that! I also hate that with all the good things I could blog about... The 'easy button is consuming all of my attention so that it's difficult to get revelation, or reflect, or even type a coherent blog... I'm thinking after my Drs appt on the 23rd all will be well with the world. Till then I'm leaving it alone and trying not to think about it... yeah right!

So there it is... my vanity... exposed for all the blog world to see... I promise I'll be over myself soon enough and back on track with my blogs. Till then you'll understand if I don't find the Staples commercials quite as humorous as I did before, wont you?