Seize The Day!
"...fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." (Hebrews 12:2)
I've always liked to see what's coming ahead. I can't help it! It's part of my control freak nature I suppose. I justify it by telling myself that I need to know what's coming so I know how to prepare. I've gotten a lot better over the years, but I've been known to read ahead in a book to find out how a situation is going to turn out or to skip ahead in a movie because I needed to know what's going to happen. I've come a long way, but I still appreciate a good head's up!
When I first started to catch the commuter bus to work I was adamant about getting a window seat on the driver's side so I could look ahead at traffic. I mean how else would I be able to will the driver to slow down, speed up, change lanes, or take an alternate rule. Let me tell you back seat driving on a 60 passenger bus is very stressful! While others around me dozed off or read, I was sitting straight up trying to catch a glimpse of what was ahead wondering what was causing my neck and eye strain...
Now, when I looked out my window everything was clear as a bell but it only allowed me to see what we were passing at that moment. Because of the way the windows are designed on the bus, I couldn't see accurately whenever I tried to see ahead. When I tried to look through the window in front of me, it showed a reflection of traffic on the opposite side of the bus kind of super-imposed over the real view. The resulting image was distorted, so I wasn't really getting an accurate picture of what was ahead. Eventually, I learned to relax and let the driver worry about seeing ahead.
The thing God showed me in this is that while I was busy trying to distinguish the real image from the superimposed one so I could see ahead, I was missing what was right out side my own window. How often have I lived my life this way. Always looking, living, longing for some future moment or event to the extent that I was missing out on my present. I flashed back to being in middle school longing to be in high school, then finally being in high school wanting to be in college and so it continued... I wondered how many moments passed me by or how many things I didn't enjoy or appreciate to the fullest because I was so busy trying to see,wanting to be ahead...
Maybe this is the insight that comes with maturity and experience, but I'm learning to focus on the here and now and leave the future to God. The thing I have to remember is that I don't have to know it all as long as I'm keeping my eyes on the One who does. There are still times when I forget, but it's getting better. There is much less spiritual neck and eye strain when I stick to doing my part and leave God to do His.
Bottom line is we don't get a do over. Life is a one shot deal so why not enjoy every moment of every day to the max and let tomorrow take care of itself. Still make plans, still have dreams, goals and aspirations, but enjoy your todays because they only come around once. Well, enough rambling, I'm off to enjoy the day!